Exciting Expectations

I'm happy to announce that I don't have gestational diabetes. I am beyond thrilled. I am able to eat freely, enjoy my pregnancy, and have a piece of mind that my baby is healthy. This news has come just in time for my birthday and vacation. Although, I can't wait to eat, I'm more aware of the effect my diet has on my baby. After vacation will be the perfect time to redirect my efforts to healthy eating and an healthy lifestyle. I'm looking forward to swimming; the pool has been closed all summer . I'm also looking forward to enjoying the remainder of my pregnancy. I'm interested in hyponobirthing. The focus with hyponobirthing is to remain relaxed and enjoy the moment. Pregnancy, birth, and postpartum  are to all be enjoyable times.

7/24/15        23:06 I went to do my 3 hour sugar test today. I was able to avoid the trauma on my birthday. The solution was nasty this time. It was fruit punch flavored and probably the sweetest thing I've had in years. I think that if I didn't have diabetes, that solution was sure to give it to me. I'm now less anxious about the test results. I'm just trying to come to grips with just surrendering and realizing that I have to control either way. It just feels like someone stealing a basketball as I'm about to make the shot. I was having a completely "normal" pregnancy and this prospect of having gestational diabetes hurts that. On a different note, I'm becoming more aware that I am easily annoyed. Now, I don't think I am unnecessarily annoyed, buy I'm finding that things I would normally chalk up as a loss are now unbearable.  It 's hard to just shake things off. I also don't want to deal with certain things if I anticipate being

7/20/15     12:20 Felicity and I survived our first night float. Overall it was a great night and I can't complain. I'm hoping for good nights all week. While my shift was ending, I saw that the results of my glucose 1 hour test were received . I failed with 199; the norm is 90-140. I instantly became sad and concerned. How am I gonna diet while pregnant? Have I already harmed my baby? Is this my farewell to the birthing center, non-medicated birth, and pad thai? I instantly texted my husband the alarming news and had him promise to keep this to himself. Even as a physician, I was still ashamed as if I caused myself to have gestational diabetes. In fact, I shouldn't have been so surprised given my BMI and family history. Nonetheless, I was disappointed and concerned for my baby.  I called my doctor as soon as I got home and was informed that I'd have to take the 3 hour test at Quest Diagnostics. I looked though the available dates and BOOM : the next best time for t